It is difficult to rise in the mornings. Life does not seem to be worth living without Vesper. Sometimes, I think of Arc. I wonder how he is managing. I cannot find it in myself to visit. I am afraid that my bitterness will show. Deep down, I know that it is not his doing that Vesper is dead. Still, what I could do to him, I do not believe that I would be able to control myself. It is for his safety that I stay away.